On paper, this charter would have a near perfect life, she's a business woman, who jogs and drinks wine. But that's never all there is to a person. She doesn't enjoy her work, or the clothes she has to wear. She puts up a cold front to not get hurt by the world, but that wall keeps both the bad and the good out. But unfortunately for her, the one person that she has fallen for, really fallen for, is a sleazy guys at work who takes drugs and barley notices her. But all she wants is what any other woman her age wants, to fall in love and all that sappy stuff, more shoes, clothes. And as her life may seem fine to a stranger, she cries herself to sleep every night.
I think she is a smart woman, she knows what she wants, just doesn't know how to go about getting it. And I don't think she's proud of some of the decisions she has had to make, I think she wanted to be a writer and she could have been. But instead, her mother wanted her to have a reliable job and did not let her pursue it. Her mother obviously loved her, but tried to control her a little too much, paving the first few bricks for that wall.
Her life is not really living. She works long hours to pay the bills. But she has always worked hard for everything in her life and just wants to get one break. Just one good thing in her life. That's all she asks for. Sure she has a nice 3 bedroom house, a kitchen full of food and wine, but those are all material and she would throw them all away for a lover or a true friend.
I see her as being beautiful, but not only for her face. Her heart is good. She may think selfishly sometimes, but don't we all? Her long brown hair cascades down in soft curls, she has emerald green eyes that once shone with excitement and ambition but are now dull from the effect life has had on her. She is not afraid of the conventional things, spiders, ghosts, monsters. But of real things. Death, loneliness and change. Change because, although she is not happy, she is too afraid that if she takes a leap, there will be no one there to catch her. However all she really needs in life is not new shoes, or a pathetic man she thinks she loves. She needs to believe that she is strong enough to land on her own two feet all by herself. But she is too scared of what is around the corner to take a peek.
I see a friend talking about her. Someone who used to know her, but well enough to know exactly what is happening to her now. They were best friends forever. Or so they thought. After one went off to collage to pursue a career she never even wanted, the other got exactly what she dreamed of, minus the thing she treasured most. She pities her, but not in a 'charity case' sort of way. In a 'I know you can do great things, even if you don't' kind of way.
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